Year End Holidays-1

There is something about Pune n my friends which puts me at complete ease . It seems here my life just flows without any hindrances the way I want it to be . before I sleep off reading this 1 year down the line ... Lemme the speak about the wonderful week , with all the booze flowing through our blood stream making us delirious with joy, sadness at different points of time .

I always believe little amount of alcohol consumed with friends in a private place goes a long way easing up your mind . Though I am not advertising alcoholism , but it effects put you at ease and you know most of the things you say would be forgotten as the new day dawns. This whole process unburdens your soul.

With a good amount of hangover we were looking forward to watching Aamir Khan n gang dishing it out in the movie theater "3 idiots" . Though based on a bestseller I thank god the scriptwriter made it more suitable for a movie and it was a job well done.

Lets c what up next on boxing day.....would like to plug a song with this writeup...which I believe every study lover like me would like to hear.

Death in the family...

I am no Amitabh Bacchan ,this guy amazes me with his dedication to write his blog everyday. Though he writes a diary in his blog , being Big B's diary makes it an interesting read . The whole Nov went by in a super slo mo with 8 papers and lot of practicals and vivas thrown in as the deserts.

Though the best part was thank I was not freaking out because of couple of parties and my now famous 25 th B'day celebrations.

The exams ended got a couple of gifts for Mou, Maa & Baba . Was looking forward meeting Mou, and things worked out and we met the day I reached kol. But in this all my thamma was a bit ill the most surprising thing was she did not want to eat nor drink , her condition was very bad from the time she came from Durgapur , but I had a feeling that her time was nearing from the time she was not able to recognize me . I was out when Maa called up saying its emergency and we need to admit thamma in the Hospital.

I picked her up in my hands and the only response was a weak grunt , and the n she was silent after that completely. I picked a living person who I thought was a vegetable ,was admitted to the hospital.Lot of things happened form that time to the time she died.

When we were taking her to the crematorium I had a strange feeling I thought though its natural its very surprising that just a couple of days ago I picked a living person and now I along with other brothers was picking up her dead body which had no response.

In the crematorium we had to apply ghee all over her body and during one of the rituals accidently a part of the burning stick fell over the body engulfing some parts with fire...while I was exhuming the fire I still could not come to terms with this natural process of life and death , I tried to pacify myself saying maybe because its my first time with a death in the family with which Iam so closely associated with right from the word go and it being my first visit to the crematorium.

The Electric chulla resembled the magoj dholai chamber in the famous movie "Hirok Rajar Deshe" . The most bewildering part of the whole process was the point when we were asked to give water on the ash , at that point of time I thought whoever the person at the end everyone turns into a heap of charcoal / fossil fuel .

I know this being the first time I am going through so many confused emotions. But I am now slowly but steadily readying myself to lose all my loved ones which I know cannot be avoided may be deffer ed . A day would come when I wont have any emotions left on hearing a death of a near and dear one just like Dadaie , who has seen so many deaths in his life and being to the Ghats innumerable times.

At the end I also know that I am not the first one nor the last one going through similar emotions.

Happier times are ahead with the Christmas/ New Year season coming up ...and I being very happy with my Personal life amen !!!